It's sometimes hard for me to grasp that in a little over 7 weeks (give or take) that Aaron and I will be parents! We are so excited, but I would be lying if I say I'm not really nervous. It's not so much that I worry I won't know what I'm doing, it's more about the total life change that's going to happen. I know there's no total preperation for parenthood, but I'm comfortable with the idea of caring for a baby (if millions of idiots out there can raise a kid, I think I can too). What gets me a little anxious is that I know the days of "Amber time" are over. I've always been used to being able to have time to myself, and I cherish my alone time. I liked living alone when I was single, I made sure to make time for just me, and it kept me refreshed. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining about Ayden coming and losing that alone time. It will just be very different.
Work is getting crazy busy. Between juggling my regular duties, the new strategies we are doing this year, and preparing an organized plan for the person covering me while I'm out... it's overwhelming. I just hope I can get everything completed in time. I was in a training for the past 2 days and when those trainings are really good, it always pumps me up to implement new ideas or start a new project. Today there are tons of ideas I have for my job but I have to remember that I can't really do any of them until I get back. I will welcome the break from work, but it will be kind of wierd. I don't even want to think about how hard it's going to be that 1st day back at work when I have to take Ayden to daycare.
Speaking of daycare, we are back to square one. The girl I was planning to have take Ayden during the week is moving to Florida where she's from. I did a lot of digging for home daycares (I like the idea of a comfortable home environment when she's that young), but 95% of them were full and the others were just not any good. Now we are looking at the more traditional daycares and learning centers, but geez, they can be expensive! We are goign tomorrow to look at one just down the street from our house. I really hope this one is good because it's so conveniently located and it has a good weekly rate. If not, there are only 2 others that fit in our price range. It's so stressful when we don't know anyone to recommend a good place that we can afford. But, I am trying to be positive and remember that it will work out how it should. Moms have said I'll know when I look at a place whether it's the right one. I wish I could use the center Kevin will be taking Kayla to, but he's got a lot more flexibility on the $$ side.
We are finally painting and setting up the nursery this weekend. I'm really excited! I've even had dreams about it the last few nice, haha. Once we get done with the last baby shower in Atlanta, I'll have an idea of what we have left to buy. By the way, whoever came up with Baby Showers is a genious. I can't imagine buying everything needed for a baby on our own. I am so blessed to have such wonderful and giving friends, family, and co-workers. I love you all!!
So, I had my 1st experience of Braxton Hicks contactions last weekend. At first I thought it was just in my head becuase I had just read about them in my pregnancy book. But once I noticed the pressure I was feeling came every 4-5 minutes, I knew it had to be real. After 4 of them I started to time them and then they just stopped. I am going to bring it up at my next check-up just make sure it's not anything to worry about.
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